Archive for February, 2006

Thomas Merton’s Prayer

A friend wrote the following in a note to me recently. It is a prayer by a Trappist Monk named Thomas Merton. I'd heard of him before, but this is the first of his writings I've ever knowingly seen. It's good … and I'm going to have quite an experience unpacking its profundity over the next year.

My Lord God, I have no idea where I am going. I do not see the road ahead of me. I cannot know for certain where it will end. Nor do I really know myself, and the fact that I think that I am following your will does not mean that I am actually doing so.
But I believe that the desire to please you does in fact please you. And I hope I have that desire in all that I am doing. I hope that I will never do anything apart from that desire. And I know that if I do this you will lead me by the right road though I may know nothing about it. Therefore will I trust you always though I may seem to be lost and in the shadow of death. I will not fear, for you are ever with me, and you will never leave me to face my perils alone.

- Thomas Merton, Thoughts in Solitude

Blessed

This past weekend was one for the annals of your friend here. I was utterly humbled on Friday evening when about fifty people gathered to pray for me. Several people drove in from out of town, including a professor and good friend from college, my parents, a friend from my church back home, and my old roommate Pete who now lives in Arizona. We began and ended the evening with good food and conversation. The middle was wonderful filling of moving prayer. I am not eloquent enough to describe my gratitude and other emotions for the special night. I can only offer a simple "thank you." You have made me feel very loved. Thank you.

The fun continued into Saturday when we got together with my Mom's side of our family for lunch. It was a great time to catch up and see some faces that I hadn't in a long, long time.

Here are some pictures of the events (click on the picture to get into the album). If you were at one of these events and have other pictures, please email them to me.

The Fam

Saturday evening ended in some country line dancing. Let's just say that it's a good thing that I didn't get hurt. And sorry, there are no pictures. Please use your imagination.

A thought on email …

I like it. I like it so much that I have a lot of it. Eleven thousand, six hundred and twenty to be exact. My email cache dates back to September 15, 1998.

While in Colorado I pruned my inbox count from 145 to under 41 – quite a feat, if I do say so myself (and I do). Since returning that number has jumped back up to 64. It is a constant battle. If you have  written me recently and have not gotten a response, please do not think I am ignoring you. I kind of am, but only so I can stop ignoring some other people who have been waiting for a little while longer … and to sleep and bathe.
So thank you all for your patience. I really do appreciate your emails.

Slip Sliding Away

Time that is. Seven days from now I'll be scrunched between a large Frenchman and a window on a jet plane over the Atlantic. It won't be the first time … at least in reference to the Frenchman. I once flew back over the Atlantic sitting next to a 300-pound Frenchman and his eight year-old daughter. She was cute. He wasn't so cute. I'm not small either. This perfect marriage of West meets old West (as in Europe) was only enriched by the fact that my seat's headphones did not work. I watched the very gloomy, dark movie Dark City and made up my own words. I turned it into a love story. What can I say; I'm a hopeless romantic.

But I digress (that's for you Wally). Anyway, it is true that I'll be traveling within the week. I'm going to take my first anti-malaria pill now ….

Mefloquine - a.k.a Larium

There it is. The deed is done. The type of anti-malaria medicine I've been prescribed has some fairly common side effects including "vivid dreams" (oh yes, I quote) and hallucinations. Please stay tuned to see if I am common.

I feel like I didn't get much done today, but this is a flat out lie. I probably feel this way because my desk is still messy. Much that was not done when I woke up is not in a complete status … whether that be truly finished, indefinitely postponed, or deemed unworthy of my time. I'm happy to say that most things fell into the first category. Sadly, my taxes did not fall into any of the three categories seeing that my TurboTax program got an attitude around 9 in the p.m. After a couple reinstalls, I'm back in action and ready to get back the money that the proverbial man has been holding for me all year.

I had lunch with my many of my old team members today from the small pharmaceutical company that has granted me a leave. It was great to see them and catch up a bit. I enjoyed talking about "business" for a little while, though I quickly realized that I missed the people more than I missed the work. :) So far my unemployed status feels mostly like a vacation – as if I should be headed back to work tomorrow. I'm sure that once I hit the ground in Sierra Leone that the vacation feeling will have stayed safely back in the States.

Welp, that's about all I should put in tonight. I need to get to bed and see what this medicine can do to me.

Still here … and quite toasty, thank you very much!

Things are going smashingly here in Colorado. We've had some great opportunities to relax and laugh. The weather has been beautiful for skiing and observing. I took on the challenge of the mountain on Monday and was beaten into a limping pulp. My legs were so sore by the end of the day that I was taking runs of beautifully carved turns (at least in my mind) 250 yards at a time. I would stop and rest every few hundred yards to rest my legs and ensure the passing ski patrollers that I was okay. All in all, it was a great day on the hill.

There are some more pictures posted in the gallery. Click on the image below to see them.
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